Sunday, August 31, 2008
i realli dun noe wat am i actually bothering about.. but i just feel sth isn't feeling vei right in my me ...i want to find someone to chat to yet i dunno wat to talk about....i realli dun understand myself ...realli hate such a feeling ..the feeling of dn noe wat i am bothering abt.. at least i noe wat i am bothering i could done stuffs to make myself feel betta..but the prob now is i dunno why i am i feeling such way esp when i am alone .its strange ..i realli such a weirdo .. i reallo hope to understand myself betta ..i believe tats the wish of everyone ba...hmm ..shall get to sleep soon to escape from this uncertain world.
Life hav a balance ~~ posted timey on 12:08:00 AM
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Friday, August 22, 2008
i bak...my previous blog entry is so emo n pessimistic buts tat me ..haha...i think alot n bother abt even simplest stuffs on earth....no choic tats my character ...but its quite touching to have friend who text me a msg i say tat she actually cared bout me:) haha..thanx guolian:)
aniway..sth worth mentioning that i coming to the last week of my prelims:) my prelims actually lasted for 3 weeks:( erm on the whole i did manage to study finish the syllabus n manage to finish the papers n realli hope to get at least respectable or reasonable grade for prelim ... realii hope my hardwork did paid off...tho i didn put in as much effot compared to my olevels.my attention span now is real short..could oni conc for a short duration..haix i shall do sth bout tis
watch money nt enuff 2 with my family...nice show..i still dunno why it is only awarded 1 star...the show keep me entertained throughout..n the ending is realli sad n touching ..i was touched by the love that the grandma has toward her garndchild..n how her children treated her when she is ill..its realli sad to see the bad side of human when they push the responsibility of taking care of their own mother to other siblings....tis is actually happening now...why can't they think bak of how their mums sacrifise their youths n time in taking care of u ..making sure u have the best of everything ..its realli sad to see how parents are treated when their children grow up...its realli a gd movie:)
Life hav a balance ~~ posted timey on 11:01:00 PM
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Saturday, August 16, 2008
她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一举一动 你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我 却不在你心中 逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 总换不了你的 心动
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一句一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落 嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么 让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我 却不在你心中 逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 总换不了你的 心动
我知道了她哪里比我好很多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 在你心中没有 她多
just discover tis song sang by guo jing...realli veri nice n i find the lyrics realli veri gd. one is always curious n want to know whenever u encounter such situation. i noe i shldn be harbouring such a thoughts yet sometimes i just couldn control myself ... why am i such useless..i noe its time to let go ..but uncontrollably i would think back n those thoughts will just pop up into my mind....n i discover the distance is getting real far n become just hi-bye friends ..tho i dun wish such things to happen but i believe is better for me like tat ..which reduce the gan gai-ness ba..haix ..tho i dun hope for such a thing to happen ..but i just feel tat i am veri fake nowdays..i dunno why but i realli feel i changed alot ..in terms of mindset n character ...esp in terms of dealing with pple ..tho change i constant yet i do not realli like tis change in me...hmm...i also dunno..i become more protective of myself compared to last time ..but some may not like it ..but i still feel tat everyone shld accept me as wat i am ..
erm..another thing which is bothering me nw...i wondering whether wats my value in the eyes of my friends..do they realli treat me as a friend where they will share trouble n joys with me or just a " friend" in name...i realli curious bout tat..i starting to finding my existence in those friendship i have ...one thing for sure i noe is tat i ahve realli 2 gd buddies..think i dn need mention they also noe..haha...but the others ..emr i doubting my existence..if i were to gone ..i doubt they will even mind...hmm...i trying hard to find my real existence in tis world...wats the real purpose of me in tis world..i do noe tat my family members care bout me ..but i realli doubting the fact tat those so-called friends of mine do realli treat me seriously ..this sound veri pessimistic n hurting to them ...but no offence but i realli just curious ..esp thru some incidents happened over these past few mths....think yk will noe wat i toking..hahaha....but realli i do take evryone of my friendship seriously but i doubting them whether is it reciprocal????
any kind soul would help to enlighten me???
if i were to offend anyone in tis post so sorry but tats wat i feel lahx....haha ...tats just a random thought of me..dun take it too seriously-.-
kkk gtg bak to my books
Life hav a balance ~~ posted timey on 10:46:00 PM
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