mY daYs

2009-05-17T11:48:00.003+08:00

i'm bak from army ..lol..actually book out last week but didn have a time to update ..lol
..basically i think army had make a great impact in me ..esp the relationship between me n my family ..it actually got better compared to the past . but then the time in tekong passes realli veri slow ...seriously ...sianx i will be gg to field camp tmr ..hope i cant control my shit so i dun have to shit for the next 4 days ...cox i dun like to shit in the forest ...n i won't be able to bathe for the next 4 days:( pray hard i will survive ..but i think wit the company of my platoon ..it will be quite an enjoyable experience for me :)
will be bak on fri 22/5

counting down ...23 more days to POC:)))

n oh ya ..i received my uni application letters le ...i being accepted by nus FASS n ntu econs ...after much consideration ..i alrdy make my decision le ..i wansomewhere where there is less stress n also ntu is a direct honours degree..so i decided to take up ntu econs instead
n also ntu is nearer my house ...so i had alrdy accepted their offer:)) so i will be gg to study in ntu in 2011 :)))))) looking damm forward to it

2009-04-23T20:36:00.002+08:00

lol..my last entry before i go to my chalet ..lol
wat i feelin now is veri sianx !!!! my freedom is gg to end after tmr 1030am..sianx ...
but abit excited about gg in..cox i think i will change to become another person .n i hope to become stronger ...
if the others out there able to survive thru the 2 yrs ..why not me ..so i shall bear thru these 2 years ..n my uni days will be here !!!! looking damm forward to my uni days :) and also my first book out!!!!! hahahaha

i shall stay positive inside n let myself train to become a man !!1 for now
i shall leave le ...cya real soon everyone and take care:)))

2009-03-09T21:40:00.004+08:00

一起开始的旅程

忽然想到一起开始的旅程

这几个字有种温暖的气氛

如果用来形容我们是不是很巧妙传神

从没想过事情会这样发生

原本陌生的人闯进了人生

从此生命中多出你们也多出无限可能

一起作伴一起游玩一起分享青春的宝藏

一起前进一起转弯一起想下一个梦想

My baby You baby

什么都不想错过

用心感动这旅程中

因你而加倍的感动

My baby You baby

让我多记下一些沿路感受

那将会是我最美最好的收获

这是一段我们秘密的旅程

别人很难了解其中的兴奋

可惜没空理会他们我在意的只有你们

感谢你愿意陪伴我

不然我将会多么寂寞

不然如何能把泪水

变成回忆的彩虹

i noe its kinda random ..but if 俗俗俱乐部 were to read this ...i want delicate this song to the 3 of you ...i noe that we were gonna go on different path soon ...but i realli wan to thanks the 3 of u for giving me lots of wonderful memories from sec3 when we were close at the first place till sec4 when we became crazy together...going out together after exams .celebrating our birthdays together ...disgrace together ...chatting everything under the sun ..mahjong while bitching about ..having dinner at restraunts ..gg to kbox to sing ...shoppin ..chasing sales...gg buffet together ..stayover ...chalets..BBQ...adding so mani pple to our clique ...studying together ...staying together befor every major results day and till the kl trip tat we just went that we had left such a deep n memorable memories together ...i realli hope the list can continue .i'm sure it will

after i enlist into army ..the 3 of u must still rmb to meet up ar... plan for more outing so when i book out in future ..i can get to see the 3 of u ..lol ..its kinda mushy here ..but hu cares ..this is my blog ...just see the lyrics of the song n i hope u guys can see how much i appreciate the 3 of u :)) hope the 2 girls ( lily guan n shooting ) are able to get into the course that u girls want. and yukai ..hope tat u can have the determination to study yr A'levels agn ..n make sure u excel in this trial n get into communication school:))

once agn ..thx lots!!!!!

dun say i mushy please haha..cox i just dunno why i got such a urge now to express my gratitude to the 3 of u :))

FRIENDS 4ever!!!!!!

2009-03-08T13:54:00.002+08:00

results are out..i noe i cant do anithing to make ani changes. the results tat i gt is wat i wanted but why i am nt contented ????? i think tats how human behave ba... i still think i can do better than wat i get ...or did i nt put in as mch effort as the others ???
i realli dunno ... a straights B's with a D for gp ...wtf !!! why must it be a D for GP !!!! FUCK !
tat fucking GP ..i realli felt tat i disappointed my gp tutor ...n why isn't my maths a A .. i practise so hard for tat ....disappointed .... i realli have to mood for anithing now ...i feel like quiting my job now ...can i ?? ti even rejected my family overseas trip just becox of my results ...i realli dun feel like doing anithing .
i glad tat i finalli noe wat i been bothering about n i even say it out ...felt realli veri relieved after saying out ...
now i oni hope tat FASS will accept me n i will be glad ! i dun mind doing the proficiency test ... realli ...
i think i had decided ..i gonna quit my job soon !

2009-03-03T12:22:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to myslef ..i 19 le ..lol... dun noe why i nt even looking forward to this year birthday at all!!!!! seriously la...

kk..shall thx everyone that send their wishes to me :) thx lots !!!! i realli apprciate :))

kk... as u noe i went overseas on 27th feb till 2nd march with lily guan shooting n yukai ...wow!!! its realli fun !!with the yukai as the sao bao n treasurer...lily guan as the big red flower aka song nu ..shooting the ms tt( tai tai ) n lastly me as the mr geography ...woohoo..we have lots of fun n veri nice memories ...woohoo ...i realli hope that the 4 of us can be like this forever :)) we have memorable memories ..esp how we chiong shoppin malls ...cross the hectic roads ..findin our directions to different places..seeing our different luggages n of course the most disgrace thing that happen to us on the way bak from spore .haha:)

shall tok bout the trip photos someother time ...

1st day 27th feb

meet shooting for breadfast at jp then met the rest at bl shoppin centre to take the coach ..n off we embark on our 4d3n trip:) n damm funny lahx..our coach plate no. is 3838 ..lol just so suit us esp the 2 girls..haha...reached hotel the royale bintang ard 230pm ..unpack n off we went to have our lunch at lot yak plaza food court ...then went to sungei wang plaza to shop...hmm that shoppin mall nt realli nice for me n yukai but a heaven to the girls..cox sell alot of girls stuffs instead ..

then off we went to lot 10 ..the girls go crazy ..cox gt 50 percent sales at myphosis...lol

then walk to starhill gallery louis vuitton !! haha nth much there ..just go in n see nia

then went to pavillion ..its realli nice there ...branded boutiques n lots of shops ..tangs having a sales also ...nice:) have dinner at there food replublic....then continue shoppin after tat .

went bak to hotel n rest after this shoppin mall.

2nd day 28th feb

woke up veri early ..prepare n have buffet breadfast at the hotel. then we have or DBS session n off we went to kl tower...stupid reached there ard 830 n it oni open at 9 . waited there ...then went up to the kl tower ..nice view there ...after tat went to their other attractions there such as winter park which is so hot ..the mini zoo ...

aftert this took a cab to the klcc which is the petrona twins tower..managed to get tickets up to the sky bridge:) nice

then shopped ard the shoppin mall klcc suria ...a veri big megamall also lots of sales also n i brought mani stuffs too ...have our lunch at our greatly missed fast food A&W!!!!! memories:))

went to the aqurarim after tis ...nice spent quite some time there seeing the wonders in the underwater ...

took a cab to BERJAYA TIMES SQUARE..a veri tall building ..brought some stuffs for my family there also . have dinner at marrybrown ..which is lik KFC ...prefer KFC tho..continue shopped then walked bak to our hotel. unpacked n bathe ...

3rd day 1st march

same have breadfast n DBS session also ...walk to the central market ..scared by the traffic there ...that is place that sell handicrafts ..which is veri suitable to be gifts ...brought alot !!!! realli alot ..then went to the chinatown which is oppisite of the central market...is like hk those nite markets ..the streets all sell the same stuffs ..fake branded stuffs...brought some finger foods bak to hotel for our lunch ...woohoo..the tou hua there is superb:)) then brought some local food bak also ..damm heavy have to go bak hotel to unload stuffs..haha

slack at hotel for a while n went to shopped the shoppin malls ard the hotel. went bak to lot10 to get the shirt tat i didn buy on the first day ..then me n yk went to a cafe to drink while the 2 girls enjoy shoppin there .went bak hotel cox we realli tired le ..then slack at hotel...chatted n laugh n played also ..went to kfc for dinner after tat ...nice:)) went to pavillion again to get some stuffs ..cox there the stuffs more suitbale for us ..haha

went bak to hotel but we went secret receipe to get cakes first damm cheap can .u can buy 1 cake in spore but wit the same price u can get 2 slice sia...nice:))

4th day 2nd march

breadfast n DBS session agn ..haha..went to central market ...but before tat went to shop selling gifts n home accessories ..brought alot there ..then went to central market to get some gifts tat we missed out ... woohoo ...we finalli noe how to cross the road like the locals le:)) haha...went bak to the chinatown to buy the tou hua ..which we all like ..this time round we brought 1 bowl each ...:) rushed bak to hotel cox we have to check out by 2pm . reached hotel bath n packed ..eat n rest for a while ..then make our way down to the lobby to chek out ..lol..funny we have so mani bags !!!!!!!veri tiring ..is worst than running 2,4km i have the most no. of bags de...lol

took a cab to berjaya times sq where we can actually walk but is realli tiring if we were to walk

i will just die there.haha..the taxi driver even laughed at our no. of bags..haha...everyone is lookin at our bags ..hahah..funny

have lunch at KFC ...then make our way to the bus station to take our coach!!! didn regretted payin additional 12 bucks to tothe royal vip bus ..damm shuang can !!!veri comfortable!!!! sld just pay additional 8 dollars for the journey there also...

reached spore ard 9 plus then home sweet home le...

reached home my family surprised me wit a cake ...my sis brought a cake for me :) thx lots !!

then slept veri early cox realli damm tired.

kk that all bout the trip ..but i alrdy start missing the trip le esp with the company of 3 of them :)) looking forward to our trip 2 years later when me n yukai finished our ns !!! HK Taiwan Korea n Japan here we come !!!!!!!thx lots to even plannin my bday celebration today despite so tired ytd!! realli appreciate!!!!! THX!!!!!

2009-02-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

hey i bak !!! dunno for how long but i decided to update my this veri dead blog!!! lol

firstly...i am ggg overseas next fri!!!!!!!! damm excited can ...its been ages since i go overseas...n this time round i gg wit friends!!!1 haha i paid this trip by myself:) gg KL wit yukai yanli n sokteng...our overseas trip is finally finalised ..lets enjoy this trip and hope it can be a fun memorable n a safe trip for the 4 of us :) shoppin here i come!!!!!

next i am working at iras now ...nice position name..TCO ..but is meant temp call officier..haha..but quite oki there ...good workin hours n good pay ...but there for this month need to take alot of complusory leave..sianx la earn lesser like tat but take it as a opportunity for me to rest:)

2009-01-05T18:34:00.002+08:00

hey i bak again !!
ytd was my last day at work ...ironically ..i wanted to quit yet when its realli my last day ..i felt so reluctant ...the same feeling when i left car city 2 yrs bak...haix..i realli dunno whether i make the right decisions to quit de nt ...maybe i sld just go out n try other jobs ..but i'm sure i will go bak there to work again for another sales seasons provided i have the time :) HUGO BOSS:))
thx to all my colleages for accompanying me for the past few weeks esp jason wilson chongwei weilie n some of the female section staffs:):) thx lots i will drop by some time :)

kk ..i shall wish all those enlisting into army soon friends best of lucks n take good care inside:)
cya soon guys!!!

2009-01-02T22:36:00.002+08:00

hey
happie new year everyone !!!! hope tat year 2009 is a better year for everyonr:)
kk..i am busy for the past few days ...work work n work ..i even work on the 1st of jan..lol...nvm ..my job is eding tis sunday ...then i jobless again:( but i shall take a break first b4 finding another job ..hopefully teaching :) pls nanhua ...call me n ask me bak to teach.....

lol
my new yr wishes are below
1. more $$
2. more thin n better gd looking
3.smooth sialing life in NS
4.get into uni!!!!
5.haha the last one u come ask me den i tell ..

2008-12-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

merry xmas everyone....lol..to me this year christmas dosn't look like xmas to me ..i dunno why ..but i jst feel that sth is bothering me yet i dunno what is the stuff.???? i realli dunno sia...but sth veryy heavy is in my heart..haix ..i also dunno why?????

lol..will be veri busy from the next few days till 2009 ba.....
26th - work 930am -- 0200am
27th- work 1000am -- 1000 pm
28th - work 1000am -- 1000pm
29th - off ..celebrating xmas wit yl yk n st

then the rest sld be work ba....sianx ..seriously i dun like to work ..i prefer to study ..n school life is the best....ironic...i always want to get out of sch life now when i out of sch life...i prefer that life...i also dunno why

hmm since the year 2008 is coming to an end ..i shall round up my happenings for this year...
hmm 2008 i shall say isn't a good year for me n i think is one of the worst year that i been thru ...my emotions being gg thru a roller coaster ride throughout the year ..everything just come crashing down on me ....relationship ..friendships .. family ..studies ...but nonetheless i had managed to pass thru ...n now approaching the end of 2008 ..i realli hope my life can be more smooth-sailing ... n of course gd alevels results ..n haha...hope to find my ms right soon..just jk jk...

2008-12-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

hey i am bak
lol..shall update now:
last fri went to work at zoo...hmm..i dunno how to describe the experince but is bad....however the colleages there quite fun except for some..lol...i also dunno but i had already decided nt to continue..lol..nt tat i am weak but the job isnt wat i expect...can u imagine a sales assistant washing the water fountain in the shop...and the water fountain is those big ones where i heard from my friends there that the last time they clean it is 2 yrs ago.omg ....if i am nt in student council b4 ..i doubt i can endure thru this..its kinda of fear factor ...there are dust that solidfied..tadpoles ...frogs..eeeeeee.thinking of it is so disgusting ....so i think i won't want to wei qu myself in doing this ...n the travelling time is so long n i will be having adult fare soon...so i shall say goodbye to them..n hope i can find a better job soon

oki ..shall update on sth that happen a few days bak...
1st dec 2008 ..my first ever prom nite that i attended ..overall i think i s a pretty grand n class prom ..it is held at orchard shangrila ...veri class the hotel...hmm ..the food overall nt bad but pretty salty ...haha.
lol ..however spend quite alot for my prom clothes and hair:(
photos shall update another time
3rd dec 07s29 first class outing ...at east coast park bbq....veri fun n a nice class outing ..haha
hope to have more of tis ext time:)

2008-11-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

fuck!!!
i had a reallii bad day in the morning....shall elaborate mch bout this ..it will make my blood boils....
i see the truth colour of man todae ...esp those hu make use of others compassions as a tool to do sth bad...tat fucking old man ...may u be arrested soon ...or meet up wit a realli bad accident..or whatsoever...i cursed u tat nth will go well 4 u from NOW onwards...i realli feel dam dumb n felt tat my intelligence is being insulted by u ...fuck u...may u be just dead....realli...dun ever let me see u on the road...bastard..it feels so bad to be tricked like this..u make me feel guilty tats why i decided to help u .yet...hiax...i just wish u meet wit a realli bad car accident or being strike by the lightning
it is wrong to be compassionate..why both of u must scold me..i been taught since young tat i must help those in needs...yet when such a situation happen...ur heart will just soften n decided to help ..why can't u give me more concern istead of those naggingsn scoldings...i already feeling veri bad yet why must u still add on?

i decided....it does nt pay to be good..so from now onwards ...i will nt be helping anione anmore

2008-11-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

its finalli the ends of A's todae.. 2 years of my JC life had finalli ended ....tho quite tedious but dun think that i will regret choosing coming into JC ..its better for us to have a uni cert now ....tho i dun realli noe whether i can make it into the uni..but hu cares ..i gotta enjoy till i being enlisted into army:)
shall briefy tok bout the papers for my exams...
overall i tot was quite hard but i realli think i haven given everything i can ..to get the highest mark i can obtain..so i do nt have ani regrets maybe for chem p1 ba ...cox i didn realli study for tat paper..haha...realli realli hope i can get into NUs FACULTY OF ARTS AND SOCIAL SCIENCE:))

kk..so wat have i done ...
lol...i actuall have been enjoying for the past few days even my last paper had ended...lol...todae after my bio p1 ...went breadfast den went to dye+highlight+cut for oni 50bucks...haha...i like my hair now ..:)) ash grey base wit gold highlight .....wooo...cool hahaha....
after tat went bak change n went to meet class clique to town....shop..brought my mum present..then watch movie " THE COFFIN" ...dun reccomend u too watch tis show unless u wan see karen mok ..cox nt nice..nt scary n the story dosn't realli flow well...so i think is the one of worst horror movie tat i ever watch..but karen mok was hot in the show.:)

kk i shall list down some og my plans b4 i am being enlisted into the army:
1. dye my hair ( done)
2.save money (haha veri hard sia but i will try)
3.find a job
4.go overseas wit friends
5.learn driving
6.learn cooking n baking
7.learn dancing
8.go train my body
9.get slimmer
10.go for braces (tho highly impossible)
11.learn new stuffs
12.can speak fluently in english ( i trying real hard now)
13.spend more time wit my friends n family
14.find my zhen ming tian nu soon ( nt i despo just hope nia )
15.read more books to woden my knowledge( i dun wan to be a jing di zhi wa)
16.mani more but i cannot think of mani more now haha

kk i shall update more of my enjoyment
aniway wish my mum a HAPPY BIRTHDAY:))

2008-10-21T23:42:00.004+08:00

just a quick post.....
A's is reaching soon in ard 2 weeks time..i am damm scared but i realli have no more motivation to study on....i having quite a no. of negative thoughs in mind...but nvm ..mind over body.. i believe i shall overcome this beautifully:)

btw i got my enlistment letter :( eing enlisted into army on 24th April 2009:((( damm sad n scared n nervous n alittle bit excited ...haha
whatever shall get over my A's first b4 worrying bout this ....

JIAYOU n i CAN OVERCOME !!!!
n also to 07s29 :
thx for the accompany for the past 2 years tho sch end le but i realli enjoy myself in this class :)) lets jiayou for A's n dun disappoint our teachers' hardwork:)
to scandalous:
JIAYOU n JIAYOU ::)))) after tis lets plan our overseas trip n outing n clubbings or whatever stuffs::))

2008-09-17T20:00:00.002+08:00

i back ..lol..erm just some random thoughts to blog..but nth serious also ..haha...maybe tats my last entry before A's ..
gotten bak my prelim results..seriously need to put in alot efforts in the upcoming 7 weeks...haix
h2:
Chem - S
Econs - E
Maths - B

h1 :
GP: E
Bio :E

omg !!! how to get into ni with such freaking hell results...i seriously quite disappointed with bio n chem ..i did study yet why i unable to obtain at least a pass??? i realli duno how to study for these 2 subjects... i also worried for econs..its the hardest to scored in exams..i will be competing with those prestige jcs students ..how will i fare ..i realli nt confident of overcoming this obstacle successfully n amazingly.....i been thinking wat if i were to obtain such results for my actual A's ..where will i go then ..continue with my ns...retake A's ...i realli dunno lehx..

erm just hope tat wat i study for the next few weeks come out for my exams n i can score well .. jiayou:)

2008-08-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

i realli dun noe wat am i actually bothering about.. but i just feel sth isn't feeling vei right in my me ...i want to find someone to chat to yet i dunno wat to talk about....i realli dun understand myself ...realli hate such a feeling ..the feeling of dn noe wat i am bothering abt.. at least i noe wat i am bothering i could done stuffs to make myself feel betta..but the prob now is i dunno why i am i feeling such way esp when i am alone .its strange ..i realli such a weirdo .. i reallo hope to understand myself betta ..i believe tats the wish of everyone ba...hmm ..shall get to sleep soon to escape from this uncertain world.

2008-08-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

i bak...my previous blog entry is so emo n pessimistic buts tat me ..haha...i think alot n bother abt even simplest stuffs on earth....no choic tats my character ...but its quite touching to have friend who text me a msg i say tat she actually cared bout me:) haha..thanx guolian:)

aniway..sth worth mentioning that i coming to the last week of my prelims:) my prelims actually lasted for 3 weeks:( erm on the whole i did manage to study finish the syllabus n manage to finish the papers n realli hope to get at least respectable or reasonable grade for prelim ... realii hope my hardwork did paid off...tho i didn put in as much effot compared to my olevels.my attention span now is real short..could oni conc for a short duration..haix i shall do sth bout tis

watch money nt enuff 2 with my family...nice show..i still dunno why it is only awarded 1 star...the show keep me entertained throughout..n the ending is realli sad n touching ..i was touched by the love that the grandma has toward her garndchild..n how her children treated her when she is ill..its realli sad to see the bad side of human when they push the responsibility of taking care of their own mother to other siblings....tis is actually happening now...why can't they think bak of how their mums sacrifise their youths n time in taking care of u ..making sure u have the best of everything ..its realli sad to see how parents are treated when their children grow up...its realli a gd movie:)

2008-08-16T22:46:00.004+08:00

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一句一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

我知道了她哪里比我好很多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

just discover tis song sang by guo jing...realli veri nice n i find the lyrics realli veri gd. one is always curious n want to know whenever u encounter such situation. i noe i shldn be harbouring such a thoughts yet sometimes i just couldn control myself ... why am i such useless..i noe its time to let go ..but uncontrollably i would think back n those thoughts will just pop up into my mind....n i discover the distance is getting real far n become just hi-bye friends ..tho i dun wish such things to happen but i believe is better for me like tat ..which reduce the gan gai-ness ba..haix ..tho i dun hope for such a thing to happen ..but i just feel tat i am veri fake nowdays..i dunno why but i realli feel i changed alot ..in terms of mindset n character ...esp in terms of dealing with pple ..tho change i constant yet i do not realli like tis change in me...hmm...i also dunno..i become more protective of myself compared to last time ..but some may not like it ..but i still feel tat everyone shld accept me as wat i am ..
erm..another thing which is bothering me nw...i wondering whether wats my value in the eyes of my friends..do they realli treat me as a friend where they will share trouble n joys with me or just a " friend" in name...i realli curious bout tat..i starting to finding my existence in those friendship i have ...one thing for sure i noe is tat i ahve realli 2 gd buddies..think i dn need mention they also noe..haha...but the others ..emr i doubting my existence..if i were to gone ..i doubt they will even mind...hmm...i trying hard to find my real existence in tis world...wats the real purpose of me in tis world..i do noe tat my family members care bout me ..but i realli doubting the fact tat those so-called friends of mine do realli treat me seriously ..this sound veri pessimistic n hurting to them ...but no offence but i realli just curious ..esp thru some incidents happened over these past few mths....think yk will noe wat i toking..hahaha....but realli i do take evryone of my friendship seriously but i doubting them whether is it reciprocal????

any kind soul would help to enlighten me???

if i were to offend anyone in tis post so sorry but tats wat i feel lahx....haha ...tats just a random thought of me..dun take it too seriously-.-

kkk gtg bak to my books

Celebrity Morph by MyHeritage

2008-07-26T23:51:00.001+08:00

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Family history - Family search

2008-07-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

MICRO ECONS SO DIFFICULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

studies suz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alevels sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

mugging sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wan to slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

疼爱
我沉默不代表我不痛
我不痛眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受安静忍受
安静看你走

你说我很适合当朋友
你说我总是会听你说
你说别太难过保持联络
有空的时候

把疼爱都给你
把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后
眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你
把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得快乐自由
这疼痛并不算什麼

想挽留却为什麼点头
我不懂连我都不懂我
如果说的太少爱的太多
有谁能够懂

千言万语拥挤我的宇宙
让我震耳欲聋
喔喔有多少爱就有多少沈默的疼痛

i just realised that i am still unable to forget u....i did tried..but everytime i see u ..the feelin is bak..i realli dislike myself .......

2008-07-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

i feeling damm down now...why no matter how hard in understanding those maths concepts i am still unable to do those questions .....apparently i understand those concepts yet i just cannot do those questions ...it is realli damm fustrating.. i miss the times when i enjoy doing maths so much tat i dun find it a chore to do maths but is a form of satisfaction in solving those complex maths questions......

gotten back some mid year papers :
econs: 38/80 ..studied quite hard yet still fail ...but at least my essays score quite well ...but my case study sux like hell....
maths : 27/60 ...stupid ..i have 10marks of careless mistakes....fuck otherwise i would have pass..

the others have nt gotten bak...bio n gp is no hope le...i now still have a slight hope for chem cause i realli did studied for tat..n could do most of the organic chem qns ..n my tutor feel that i have improved ..so i shall hope for the best ..at least an acceptable grade please...

prelims start at 12/8/08 ... tat is bloody hell early ...this means tat i have oni a month left..wtf....my national day holis are used for mugging:( sad sad ..buts tat part n parcel of life..so i shalln grumble much....

been trying hard to pay attention in class ...yet the environment is not realli suitable..hope tat there will be some changes to the attitudes n please dun disrupt the class when u are actually a secret mugger at home ...it realli puts me off acting tat u seems to be nt interested in yr studies yet chionging yr studies at home ...please show some considerations to those ard u tat are interested in studying....

2008-06-08T17:20:00.007+08:00

Fan Fan n Angle ..ru guo de shi

Fan Fan ..shi fei ting...veri nice

Angela Landing down ...singing meng li hua for the start of the concert

YI SHI DE MEI HAO ..she cried while singing

wo lian ai le...

gong zhu xiao mei ... bu xiang dong de..whole expo hall pple singing together with her..nice:)

angela ..nice graphic n nice vocal

guo jing ...angela...fan fan

end of the concert

after singing the first song Pan Duo La

The start of her concert

waiting for the concert to start

Angela Zhang Concert 2008 百變張韶涵世界巡迴演唱會新加坡2008

went to watch tis concert last sunday with yukai....on the whole ..think the concert is too short le !!!! oni 2 hrs plus....nt shuang...then the audiences nt veri high compared to the other concerts tat i watch before....but overall i prefer her slow ballads to her fast track ..but yukai prefer another way round...lol

but her vocal was really powerful....some songs she sang was realli splendid in my opinion lahx...

some of the songs i enjoyed the most:

猜不透

手心的太阳

口袋的天空

JOURNEY

我的最爱

寓言

欧若拉

不想懂得

我恋爱了

these few songs tat i like ...n i love 我的最爱 de most ...but very sadly the most impt song tat made me wan to go for her concert she DIDN SING AT ALL!!!!!!!! i waited from the start till the end of the concert yet she didn sing亲爱的，那不是爱情... i think many of the audiences are also waiting for this song ba....sianx lehx...the song tat i like most she didn sing...

Fan Fan n Guo Jing are the special guests for her concert..fan fan sing till veri nice..think if she comes to spore for concert ...i will sure support her concert ...she also veri pretty n elegant ....think her height make her stand out from mani pple ba....

2008-05-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

erm..its realli touching to see the china earthquake charity show just now n i donated to help those people in szechuan ...looking at those pics n videos ...the speeches ...stories ...poems ....n listening to those songs....i am on the verge of crying..... especially the part when a mother uses her body to protect her child...n typin her last few words in her hp...telling her child to rmb that she always love her.... its realli makes yr heart melts ...n want to just hug yor mother as u are feeling so fortunate to have yr parents with u.....
sometimes i realli feel like telling my dad n mum how much i love them but yet i dun have the courage to them .....i reallii treasure my family....family are the one tat will stay with u no matter wat happen ....
there are so mani disaster in tis world....be it natural or man-made....man-made disaster can be prevented yet we can do nothing to those natural disaster ...lets just pray hard that nothing more disaster will be happening for the next few centuries n decades.....

had a dream last nite...n i dreamt that 23rd are running a event together ...n make me think of 23rd ....n i dreamt that i am leading a grp of pple cheering in the dream...the feeling of leading is realli good n i am missing it ....tho i see mani of them in sch ..yet the feeling is so different when the whole group of us having the same aim in mind....

dreams are different from reality n time couldn turn back....lets just work hard everyone in tis world n progress in life:)

tmr will be a betta day

2008-05-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

sianx !!!!!!!! i sprained my neck again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate tis !!!!! damm painful sia.....if the pain haven go off tmr then i shall use tis excuse nt to go to school:) tmr lesson seems useless aniway..i ate the wrong medicine just now..omg..scared got side effects sia...hope dun have...
finalli its the last week of term 2 ....time passes so quickly..june holis is comin but it is nt a holiday for us ba...think it is a good time to start mugging for a levels...haix..nvm ...shall believe tat with mugging will help me secure a place in uni...:) that will be worht it...u would be out of place if u dun even have a uni cert in the future ...the society now is so realistic...they oni use the no. of certs u have as a gauge to determine how successful u are n whether u worth the place in the company....

china earthquake was so saddening ...i totally being affected by it ytd while watching those videos....i think the main crucial factor is the quality of buiding that worsen the effect of this eathquake...those construction companies tat were responsible for these buiding in the state should be feeling damm gulity....over thousands died...n some stories tat were published in the newspaper were so touching ....parents uses their body to protect their children ...i believe tat every parents in this world would place their children in piority....especially those mothers..lets all help out in this sichuan earthquake !!!!! donate generously to help them please!!!1

2008-05-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

heartbreaks last as long as u want & cut as deep as u allow them to go..the challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them..when it rains..look for the rainbow

2008-04-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

2008 is realli a sucky year for me.....
firstly... my hope is dashed..the one that i spent so much time n effort on it just gone like this....the one that i spend almost 2 years n it just ended ...totally none of it came true....but since u tis is yr choice..i have tto respect it...
secondly...its going to may soon yet i am stil unable to settle down and study...my studies is in a total mess...the probabiltiy of me failing a every tests is close to 1..since now i think the no of failure is almost dunno how mani times of the test that i passed....seriously i needa do sth to it b4 i regret in the future
thirdly...my emotions are going on a roller-coaster ride...i dunno how to end this ...i sweared that tis few months is the worst months i ever gone thru...stress from studies...relationship....family...whatever u name it ..think i also have....issit realli tat i think too much....i realli hate such things...emo-ing have become a habit for me ...
lastly..my relationship with my family worsen....i find it hard to communicate with them...a few words will then end up in an argument ...n the atmosphere is realli bad....haix...i realli dunno how to communicate well with them...

luckily i still have a bunch of friends for me to talk otherwise i think i will explode n break down one day....

2008-04-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

i respect your choice and wish you all the best

2008-04-23T22:16:00.001+08:00

u own me an ans tat i wanted so badly...haix
i noe shldn be thinking bout this but i couldn control myself.....

2008-04-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

wtf ...damm pissed off with them last nite...wth i am already 18 can u give me atleast some personal freedom?? just a simple midnight show also cant ...why nt u just lock me up in the cage n dun let me go out ....i went out at 6 plus yet u demanded me to be home by 11 ...wth ..might as well dun go out ..its nt like i everytime will watch midnight show...fuck lahx..then two of them each call n blast into my phone ...wats yr problem.....fuck....please also stop criticise others ...by allowing to go home late dosen't men that they dun care bout their children...tis shows tat they have trust in their children n they communicate well with them ....why can both of u see that.... all u wan me is to study..of course i will take responsibility in my studies ...is my future at stake ....i am a grown up n i can think..i noe how to differentiatie the time to study the time to play...please think about it....if one day i would turn to a rebillious child ...pls dun regret wat u both is doing now.
buying psp is another issue that make me damm pissed..been wanting to buy a psp ...n i didn even demand ani money from u....i been saving up n i using my own savings to buy...wats yr prob of saying that money is yours..all those money i dun deny that is given by u but pls dun 4get ..i work in holidays and i saved up....pls just throw away your traditional mindset..now is the 21st century ....pls wake up....

2008-04-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

seriously i realli think i should do something tha can make me wake up and start preparing for my studies...realli felt fed-up with myself fo wasting sp much time on sufing the net everyday ...the main purpose of my laptop is to listen to msic ...but i would usually end up surfing net .watching videos form youtube...result hw nt done....wat can be done to stop these ??
i noe now is the time for me to study yet why am i doing so ? to everyone hu is eading this ....if u see me slacking off from studies ..please just come forward to give me a tight slap ..n ask me to wake up n start studying ...i promise my family that i will start studying yet its is so unproductive of me to do oni 2 tutorial questions in 2hrs-.- wat can be done to do this ..why am i still nt getting into action .... issit realli that i so used of gg out to play since o levels till now
? i do need help for motivation to study .....i think it s even worst than o levels ...am i getting complacent over my olevels style? last minute studying is possibe ....i dun think so...is possible in JSS cause i have mani teachers available for consultation n the sch prepare us well for it ...but in JJC ..haha...i think i can oni have one person to rely ..which is ME ..LAU YAN HONG ...give me a few more days ...i promise to start mugging from this wkn onwards...is a promise ..if i failed to do this .....just come up n demand money or i let u decide wat u want to do to me ....tmr will be the last day for me to slack ....i hope so ..MOTIVATION tat is wat i need ......can u give me some ..i believe u noe hu u are:)

2008-04-12T20:06:00.002+08:00

i am back :)
lol everything in my mind now is settled n now i can really put down everything n start to move forward ....seems so stupid for me to remain stagnant in my life ...so now its a new start for me :) n do realli hope tat i can do this .... dunno how mani times i said this le but i will try my best to fufil tis hope of mine... focus now is to prepare well for my alevels

over the past few weeks some of my alevels subject results were out ...i got both A's for chinese n project work ...damm lucky sia ...cause i dun think i put in enuff effort for my chinese paper ....n for pw ...i think is my pi help me ...lol... aniway my hope now is to have decent grades for my 3 h2 subjects to beautify my alevels cert n a secure for my future...

initially wanted to clear my hw in the afternoon but o ended watching tv ..haix...nvm at least i completed 1 chem tut.... shall get bak to complteing my hw:)

2008-03-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

i am still unable to forget ...why is it so hard for me to do this? why do i still hope tat u will make my wish come true? just a simple greeting from u realli make my day. but i would rather u t do anythin or just do sth to make me dislike u which can end everything. is it possible for us to be together? if u happen to see tis post of mine . could u just give me a reply? do yo know that i still waiting tho i already know the answer indirectly .. i am realli serious about tis why i am denied from this chance? acting ignorant is realli difficult for me . i dislike such feeling . i am still waiting for that answer

2008-03-12T22:33:00.001+08:00

i wanna study !!!!!! i need the motivation!!!! i need self-discipline !!!! its time to switch on my engine !!!!! time is running out!!! i wanna excel for a levels!!!!

2008-03-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

GAME OVER!!!! EVERYTHING IS OVER !!!! I WAN TO FORGET!!!!

2008-03-03T20:31:00.003+08:00

lol i am finall 18!!!!! thx to all whu wish me happy birthday today ...thx to my family for the dinners n the gifts that haven be brought n also everyone hu haven give me the gifts ...lol... i understand that all og u are busy studying at the moment so i dun blame u guys :)

lol lots of upcoming events tis week
tues - celebration of me n st birthday
wed - bio test
fri - chem test
sat n sun - the UTIMATE SCANDALOUS FAMILY chalet at east coast!!!! to celebrate me st lily n des birthday...looking forward to it:)

n also dun noe when my class peeps celebrating with me lol

btw i been damm lan pei today
firstly ...being spray with water shampoo facial cream n facial mask by the jss peeps ...then i have to wear bk my veri smelly pe t-shirt....
after that ran to the bus stop to go jp for lunch ...fully drenched by the rain.....went jp pizza hut for late lnch with lily molly n yk ...were discussing how to do shooting on thurs ..lol

k oh ya forget to thanks all those whu wish me n also my aunts n cousins who gave me present ..lol
thx lots:)

happy 18th birthday to myself:)

i waited the whole night for your msg yet it didn come .....my wish was so simple yet it is not fufilled ... acting as nth have happen in front of u is difficult yet the sight of u makes my day.... just a simple act from u can make me smile ....

i finally see the real meaning of friendship ... thx lots hu still rmb my birthday n create surprises for me esp yukai n molly :)) thx friends 4ever !

2008-03-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

I HOPE MY WISHES CAN COME TRUE!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

dun noe i suddenly feel damm emo after watching fei fei memorial show on scv....haix....n i realli think i needa to blog ....i dun noe why am i thinking so much these few weeks ....sometimes its realli nth serious yet i could get affected by it so much ....realli pity my family memebers as they have to stand me n endure my smelly face at home...
studies is totally hell for me... the speed is too fast for me to catch up ....can i give up.....i tired
in addition to loved is easier to forget ...i believe time is the oni way to heal ....time is the oni thing that can let me forget ..

2008-02-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

its the leap yea today!!!! 29th feb 2008:)
dun noe why friends ard me are facing mani relationship problems...haix sorry to those as i couldn help much.. those who noe me well shld noe why lol.... went to watch "the leap year" ..vei touching n nice show..... esp that part when lee ann rejected ks... omg ..ks have been in love with her for so mani years yet she still didn accept him... haix ...why must like this ...if i were him... i believe that i will continue to wait till the day that u are willing to:) i would prefer the story to end in another way ... it would then be much more saddening ...lol....aniway i strongly reccomend tis show

i am still waiting .....no matter wat even after how mani leap years ...i will continue to wait

2008-02-26T18:31:00.002+08:00

林俊杰 - 期待你的爱

My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在裡面放一份爱
Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我实实在在
不管帅不帅
想要找回来自己的节拍
所以这一次我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
妳的存在心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯越靠近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始就是放手去爱
想要找回来自己的节拍
所以这一次我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
妳的存在心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯越靠近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始就是放手去爱
幸福的开始就是放手去爱

2008-02-24T21:58:00.003+08:00

everything should come to an end.....i am tired n mentally-drained by this ... realli ...but if one day u would were to agree ...i will be still waiting..... tho it is hard to forget ..but i will still try .... i do still hope that we can still remain good friends as friends are the one that can accompany each other forever..... if i were to have cause some inconvenient for u over the pass few weeks...realii sorry ....

北風毫不留情　把葉子吹落　脆弱的她選擇了逃脫
葉子失去消息　風才感覺寂寞　整個冬天　北風的痛沒人能說

※ 我從來沒想過我會這樣做　
從來沒愛過所以愛錯
我從哪裡起飛從哪裡降落　
多少不能原諒的錯卻不能重來過

※ 翻開回憶角落　完美的生活　以為幸福都可以掌握
仔細回味當初　那個故事背後　
Oh 原來是我　犯下從沒承認的錯

在這少了妳的世界 Oh~ 找不回那些感覺　
其實我不想道別　那些過去

我從來沒想過　我會這樣做
從來沒愛過　所以愛錯 (從來沒有愛過那麼認真)
我從哪裡起飛　從哪裡降落
多少不能原諒的錯　卻不能重來過
我從來沒想過　我會這樣做
從來沒愛過　所以愛錯
我從哪裡起飛　從哪裡降落
多少不能原諒的錯　請妳原諒我的愛錯

2008-02-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

why must it be like tis ..when i tot of everything is gg well between the two of us...why must tis happen....i dun get it.... u are the only one tat i fancy....why ...can't see my effort put in .? the feeling of being so near yet so far is so unbearable ... it realli torturing to pretend nth happen whenevr both of us meet.... haix..maybe tats reali game over le.....

2008-02-14T22:09:00.005+08:00

lol..happy valentines to all:)

i have made that move le....i shall wait for your reply but realli hope i will be given tat chance :) my tolerance level is veri high de so shold be not a problem....realli hope that the day will come soon .....i will wait :)

happy valentines n hope u like the gift:)

2008-01-27T23:04:00.001+08:00

should i or not????? pls ans me

i realli hate tis feeling now...it is totally similar to the one i feeling 2 yrs back.....friendship or relationship ??????

2008-01-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

its weekend again .... as usual sch sux alot....hw test hw test ..its a never ending process till october ba... so i have to accept the fact of this...n start studying ...teachers are rushing the syllabus now...why can't alevels be a 2.5 yrs course ...its realli stressful when i am bothering about "other stuff " rite now..... back 2 the topic...the chapters that we are learning now are much much difficult compared to in j1....realli ....its damm demoralising when after lecture we are unable 2 solve the tutorials qns....haix...

rite now i am being veri confused about in making that move...should i or not....i realli dunno....friends are for forever yet i dun think we at this age will be able 2 commit to sth till old.... so ...i am still considering ....cause i dun wan to have ani regrets ..i already miss a chance 2 yrs ago le....now i dun realli wanna to be regret....but the friendship we forge will be gone if things go wrong.... so should i or not..i shall wait till 140208

2008-01-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容　
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

i like u:)

2008-01-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

its weekend again:)
tis week nth much happen .....hw n tests .....also been busy watching hua jing road ...haha...the show is so nice think is one of the best show produced my mediacorp ..the storyline is nice n also the acting of cast is superb!! also ...felicia chn is so damm chio in the show :) her acting skills realli improved tremendously ..hope tat she can be nominated for the best actress for the star awards tis year n win the award:) btw realli hope my gf got the felicia chin type de ...haha tho its is hardly possible ...but she realli damm chio lehx...haha...tink i got a little siao bout her..haha

sianx ...next week got 2 tests...haix....wed: maths test on p&c poison n binomial distribution....i know nth bout these chapters......i dun wan 2 fail test!!!! fri: econ test on market failure....also i got tons of wkn hw 2 be completed... gaseous state satt , carboxlyic acid tut , maths normal distribution tut , gp current affair , econ case study ....never ending hw....haix..i wanna slack!!!!!!

2008-01-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

its fri again!!!! finalli..tho i oni went sch from tues to fri..haha
i sprain my neck on sun...it is so unexpected lorx...when i woke up..i find the ache on my neck and it gets real serious at nite...i couldn even raise my head straight and i need sth to support my head....argh damm painful..couldn sleep well for the nite due to the pain...
went to polyclinic to see a doctor the next day...wat i learnt from there is not to go polyclinic if your illness is realli serious..ha ... cause i waited for 3 hrs to see a doctor when my neck hurts badly...somemore the doc didn help me massage or whatever ...just ask me a few qns n prescribed some medicine n finished...-.- waitig time 3hrs ...treatment time less than 5mins -.- but the medicine quite effective....cause the medicine is to relax the muscle in my body but that will make me damm sleepy..slept the whole afternoon....shuang!!!!
tues - fri... sch daes nth much happen except that i have 2 rush hw everyday till 12 plus -.- wth ..dammm tired ....cause too much hw ....thats jc life-.-

tmr gg klunch with lily yk n eleen ...then after tat have 2 rush home for my sis bbq birthday party.....then sun think staying at home to do hw n maybe if there's time have to start revising for the organic chem test

btw i realli pissed sometimes by the way ...speak to me ...its realli didn go thru yr bloody hell damm brain ......am i that close to u for ....to say all these freaking shit comments?wat business do ... have to comment how badly on how i spent my life ??? tats me ... accept that or just shut up..... i content with my own life even my parents do not say tat bout me ...can... just shut up???
please !!!! i realli hate that n its realli spoilt my day !!! fuck off please

2008-01-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

its time for update!!!
last day of 2007 went stayover at yk condo with scandalous family except stella not there...but b4 hand went out with some of them ( yk des molly ) first ...went city hall ....then walk to marina sq to find a place 2 have dinner but we saw sth that we shld not have seen. ....rite shooting?
haha...then decided to have dinner at NEW YORK NEW YORK at city link... queeue for ard an hour b4 we finally got our seats...the food there is nice n i like the ambience ...not bad...a gd place for gatherings n meetups...highly reccomend tis...the price there is still qite reasonable .... after dinner which is ard 9plus ...went to je to find lily guan....then went to ntuc to buy food drinks for the stayover....then went to yk condo le...play cards ...also play mahjong...then we countdown.....woohoo...we were self-highing throughout..i pity his neighbours...haha
shooting n dalian came then shooting got gd news 2 share...tink that is her most happy new year eve ba...haha...mahjong throughout the nite..then crap with et ...play finger game with mx n lily....then ard 5plus went to sleep ...went home ad 7plus...then went to sleep till 11 then went out with my family....for lunch at chinatown..

started sch...main new rules or i shld say weird rules....dun see the need of these changes ....changes gp econ n chem tutor...but think these teachers are quite experience ...hope they can be of great help to my studies...sianx...first day of sch jiu start lesson le...mani teachers told us abot the test sheldue for the year ...omg t...almost there is a test every 4 weeks -.- sianx...
we even have a maths test on the second day of sch...n i stayed up till 12 plus to study for it-.- ..
next week its the start of being a 'gd boi' ..the sch want all of us to tuvk in our shirts-.- ...we are jc students...excuse me.....
btw my timetable rox....i get to go home at 1230 on thurs:)woohoo....can go home n sleep!!!!haha
but j2 life sux...so mani tutorials assigments n tests...heard tat alevels maybe push forward...sianx...why so early have the exams where i have 2 go army after tis-.-
went out today to bugis ...brought 2 shirts at 40dollars:)...omg i been having good food everytime i went out...lunch at 4plus : pasta mania $10++ dinner at 8plus: mos burger $7.45
i'm like a rich boi-.-sianx..have 2 save up abit liao

gotta do tut tmr ..sianx ..i dun wan 2 study...but gotta find my study momentum bk:)

2008-01-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

朋友
这些年一个人
风也过雨也走有过泪有过错还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂会寂寞会回首终有梦终有你在心中
朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛，还要走还有我

2007-12-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

i am back!!
times passes so quickly and it is coming to the end of the year 2007...enjoy myself alot this week which is the last week of the holidays:)
26-27 dec --23rd chalet!!!!! finalli we have our chalet ...tho oni 2d1n yet we all have fun....meet up at je then off we went to downtown...on the train...chatted n read a book from mx....tho stupid but think quite inspiring....haha...bought lunch from white sands then we walk to downtown east....me wc aa zc went to wild wild wet after putting down our stuffs while the rest stay in the room to play mahjong n cards..wild wild wet was still oki cause of the lack of facilities n varieties .....
went back to the chalet ard 6plus then help out with the bbq n of course to eat...then some went to play vball while me n some others stay n cook the food...then we chatted n gossip....
pack up n went back to the room ...took group photo....have fun n lots of screaming when taking photos esp from CHUA TZE LIN...hahathen we went to the beach sat down n we chatted ...went bk ard 12 plus.... me aa wc went to the shower room to bath cause we dun wan to snatch the toliet with them...ha...watched movie...forgot the name of the movie but it is somehow similar to hana kimi....not bad...maybe is the atmosphere of watching together with 23rd ba...me aa wc gw des went down to play cards since quite of no. of them wanted 2 sleep...play mani different kinds of card games then also chit-chatted....talk bout mani things but we were not gossiping but discussing about serious stuffs...ha....then went up to the room ard 6 plus n i went to take a nap ...watched angela concert...then check-out le.....
have breakfast n we went to yeele house to sing n play...then have dinner at subway n go home n sleep:)
hope 2 have another longer chalet with 23rd n also with scandalous family:)

28thdec -- went bk 2 sch to settle cookie house stuffs n i went to cut my hair....have dinner at jp with my family n my mum friend n my cousin n nephew...went bk home n watch tv...

29thdec --- stay at home n do some work...did a few qns from carbonyl tut....damm slow ..whole day i oni did ard 6 qns-.-

YEAR 2007 been one of my most fufiling year ba...
jan - feb '07 -- tried working and also tried being a taitai at home:) thik thats the most elaxing time i ever had for 17 years ba...dam shuang ...wanna go out jiu go out...dun even need 2 bother about anything ...no one bother how late i wake up...woohooo...i wanna go back to this type of life but oni for a few mths...tis will not be realistic if i will to undergone tis type of live everyday....
gotten back my 'o' levels result ....which the fruit of labour of my hardwork in 2006...tho it is not exceptionally well but it is at least a reasonable grade.....
march'07 -- move on to a new phrase of life..... went to study in jjc ....n also gotten a taste of how hectic jc life could be .... tho difficult but i have endured thru half of the journey....gotten endure thru another year n i am freed !!!
july'07 -- common test !!! after 'o' levels ...the first time taking exams again...tho tiring yet manage to pass most of my subjects...:)
sept'07-oct'07 -- promos ....the stressful period...studied quite hard for it but the grades were not up to my standard....
nov'07 - dec'07 -- work again .....also spend lots of time with all of my friends n families...

hope i can have a smooth sailing year 2008:)

2007-12-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

i am back again:) oki shall blog bout these previous days
18th dec - last day at work ...realli a big thank u to the aunties there...realli veri grateful for being so good to me ....esp the apples n pears....haha .... then also to meiqi for recomending this job to me ....haha.. realli feel alittle sad when i leave the place..cause they been too good to me ...THANK YOU:)

20th dec - 2-3'04 class gathering at marina bay...met up with my lower sec friends but mostly we are still in contact....yet we still have so mani things to talk about...till now i still prefer my lower sec class the most ...haha...maybe cause most of my close friends are from the lower sec ba....but aniway we still have fun eating at marina bay ....

21st dec - mahjonging at our dearset shooting house....as usual i lose the most ..dunno why bt my luck tend to be veri bad since the dunno when ....i dun wan!!! cny is coming i wanna win in mahjong..haha...then have dinner at jp ...then chit chatted at mac ..then go john little to buy things since they are having 20% discount but I DIN BUY ANYTHING....haha

23rd dec - celebrate christmas with my scandalous family ....shooting... dalian... missy lily guan .... molly amazing ng meiqi ... retro king ong yukai ... bai bian tian hou stella...then mx came later... firstly we were suppose to dress glamarous for that day ...ya...everyone look so glamarous n we were laughing throughout...then we went to suntec to have the porridge buffet...eat n chat then we start to exhange gifts...haha...i received my gift from yukai....is a adidas perfume ..haha.thanks lots... then we went to kbox...wyh due to festive season the price increse to $16++ per pax...so damm ex..but we have fun lahx..cause we sing from 2 - 9 ...no one came n chase us....then sing till 7 plus left me shooting dalian lily guan n bai ban tian ho...we were damm high.... we were just singing at the top of our voice....haha realli enjoy myself :) after tat...we went into crystal jade when each of us have ard only 5bucks...haha...that was a joke ...cause we were veri thirsty n dun feel like eating much...tme dlian n shooting were browsing thru the menu ...then lly guan just told the receptionist that we have 4 pple -.- then we were too shocked to react n no choice we have to enter ...so after looking thru the menu ....we order 2 dry plain noodles ...1 soup noodle ....n 1 fish porride -.- so disgarce cause the noodles onl cost 2.50 n 2.00 respectively -.- but to save face we order a plate of fried chicken....so we ate n of course drank lots of water...then we were veri tired n we went home after tat...

24th dec - christmas eve went escape with shooting dalian n lily guan ....haha..met at 11 but lily guan n dalian were late...then went 2 escape le ..bt on the train we crapped as usual .....haha..reached le the weather seems that it is gonna to rain soon but it turned out fine....play almost every ride except for the ones which are closed down n the go-kart cause too many pple ...n today i did a most crasy thing i did for this year n on christmas eve...i went to sat the INVERTER ....THE 360 DEGRESS TURN ride...innitially i resist going up but in the end decide to give it a try...all i could say is was fantatics!!!!!!the 3 mins ride was realli thrilling .... we were shoutinh throughout n our face were numb at the end of the ride...there was a point where we were upside down for ard 5 secs ...for that moment ..the 5 secs seems to be the longest 5 secs i ever have.... wow...was realli fun n i would definitely go n ride that again:)
after escape ...we went to have a drink n went home...innitially on the train we were chatting bu later the 4 of us started to sleep .....then i went to jp to meet my family cause i giving them a treat ...i treated them BILLY BOMBERS ....haix..cause no seats in most restraunt then they went in le then called me n aay that they were in billy bombers...i was totally shocked....omg ...cause billy bombers veri ex...haha..the food is oki lox...but i dun think the price matches the food....haha..but since they enjoy jiu can le....

wat a long entry ..the last week of the holis le but i haven start doing n revising my work-.- ..idun care gotta enjoy myself first:)....having 23rd chalet on 26 n 27 of dec then new year eve n new year gotta find peeps go out also....lastly

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

2007-12-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

i back again....been veri lazy to blog bout my current situation rite now....
oki where shall start?....bintan trip was overall not bad except for that damm weather tat spoil everything...haix...but enjoyed myself....cause i finally get t rest !!!! realli...the way how i spend my life there is realli sperb n i dun think i will have a chance to have back in spore..tat is my defination of rest.... no contact with the outer world.... time to lie ard.... spend time with my family.... n just realli lay ard dun need to bother about anything whether in terms of studies work relationship...everything i am bothering abot is entirely forgotten.....realli even the time i spend sleeping is longer compared when i bak i spore....woo..i wanna go back n enjoy life...another goal for my life...when i retire i wanna go to a insolated island when i can enjoy the nature n need not bother abot anything with my life partner ...haha...when can i fufil my this dream? hahah

2007-11-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

i back again ....too lazy 2 update....i also dunno where i have stop...haha... oki its the holidays now n i am just too lazy 2 update my current situations...

firstly i had started working.... at a office at turf city ...doing admin stuff with meiqi.... tho quite stress but the pay is good....haha...waiting desparately for the day i get my pay...muhahaha.....but there is sth i must give up for if i wanna work....my 5-6 yu le bai fen bai..... my dinner with my family....my sleep time...of course studying time.... oh ya..went sch collect my result slip...damm horrendous.... tho i did try hard for my promos yet i dun think it is enuff...time...n also maybe the wrong study method or jc life is realli not suitable for me???
but now i had been promoted ...no more of such excuses....last yr n i can get into uni provided i put in 101% .....n i can be the first person entering uni in my papa side family n fulfil my family wish?? hope this dream of my can realli come thru....if i can overcome 'o' levels....i shall do the same for my 'a's next year....but work n studiess...i realli cant balance... whenever i reached home after work ...i dun feel like doing anything...
started doing some hw ytd yet i forget almost everything.....how can??? shit man... i dun wan history to repeat... have 2 spend 60% of my revision in my j1 topics...omg i seem so mature yet why i always cant put those words into actions???

haix....money if i have everlasting amount then i need not go work ......

oki besides work just finish 2 alevels subjects..chinese n project work...
chinese.... i dun think i have done my best but no choice...hope my language paper can pull my marks up ba..otherwise...gg .....i contended with a B tho i hope 2 enter mass comm in chinese next time... sianx...one of my dream degree is gone
project work.... finalli finished le..tho nth disastrous happen yet realli been tiring throughout....yes..it had ended...

yes 4 more days n i will be gg overseas..to bintan indonesia...finalli can go overseas le....go there can sun-tanned swim eat sleep pool ...of corse i will be bringing my dearest laptop over..without my laptop i will die..of corse also why why love dvd...use tis chance 2 finish my show..then can conc watching gong zhu xiao mei le...muhaha...also i wan 2 watch dou niu yao bu yao...by hebe mike he..

shallupdate bout my trip soon

Chimpanzee (Pan-Kun) Boards a Train in Japan

2007-10-18T22:34:00.001+08:00

very funny n cute!!

2007-10-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

i back 2 blogging dunno how mani weeks past....oki it is 2 plus now and i jusst finish editing my pw op slides....sehx tired lehx...i do from 11pm till 2am...wah lao...i am sleepy but have 2 wait 2 send finish to rina.... oki shall blog bout my promo results...

firstly ...i have oni a word to describe my grades...it is so disgusting....
h2 subjects:
chem 55/110 E
econs 29/55 E
maths 30/100 U
h1 subjects
Chinese 113/160 A
GP 50/100 E
Bio 44/80 D

so horrendous....omg i cant magine if i would have such resutls for my a levels....but i have already tried my best le...tho disappointing but i manage 2 pass most of the subjects...think to me the most disappointing subject is chem ba ... i study damm hard for it lorx...i even tried to do tys... yet i just merely pass....-.- haix..shall not brood over these ...have mani more things for me to look forward to....

sianx upcoming 2 weeks needa prepare op n chinese a levels...damm ...its boring:( oso keep going out ..no money le ...someone pls give me money.. i need work ..anione got lobang can msg ....but i dun wan 2 be waiter ...haha..no offence but i just dun like...heehee...

oki send finish le i wana sleep le...btw 4-4 pple pls tell me n calister where n when u guys want for class gathering:)

bb

特務J Retarded Version

2007-10-05T00:43:00.001+08:00

2007-09-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

i am tired... in every aspects of my life.....haix...realli wan to give up right now....need motivation....realli need the strength to get back to reality....and accept everything that comes along my way.... strength is what i need right now.. to handle many different aspects....i realli miss the times when i am confident of myself especially in terms of my studies....need someone to enlighten me right now...why am i so weak ? being so easily beaten down by challenges.... i rmb wat chinhua wrote for me... strenght is what i need to conquer everything that comes ..... so where can i find this strenght... someone pls guide me....

just hope that things can change better and i can be more confident of myself..... yes i can cause i believe therefore i can achive....

promos is a few days away...realli have 2 make full use of my time...no more daydreaming ...i need to quickly settle down n focus.... i wan to be promoted!!!!!!

2007-08-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

i back...from the hectic school life....
school is so boring these few days....hw are piling up and i really unable to settle down and start to clear these homeworks..... due to lack of sleep the past few weeks..slept very early for 3 days last week....but i become even more tired the next day..... n now i been somesort addicted to online games...ar....i am so dead.... a month left before the start of promo yet i am unable to start settling down to revise.....argh..how???
hw are alot so how am i able to revise???? teachers do not pity us.... they wan us to study for promos yet they are giving lots of tutorial....n pw is also rushing....argh......

2007-08-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

updating my blogg.....
oki dunno where to start lehx...but have a veri long weekend this week and been going out shopping ..kboxing....gossiping..playing...computering...mahjonging.....haha.....enjoying myself these few days which thus results lack of sleep these few days....

4/8/07 ....work at orchard distributing fliers.... $7 per hour....work for 4 hours ..veri sianx..cause alone outside paragon there...but got money to take then oki lorx.... earn $28 ...have dinner at far east ....then shop ard far east...in the end spent $29 on a shirt.....haha..my salary...but ok lahx...cause the original price is $50++ ...then discount till $29 ...a long sleeve white button shirt....worth it lorx.... went to cinne after that...shop till 11 then went home...on the tran play the game we usually play ...that test our mo qi....reach home ard 12 then use the com till 2 plus then go sleep...

5/8/07... stay at home n slack.....use com..play star mahjong...then night time went jp for dinner...brought a wallet from wallet shop...$26....haix...spend money again......

6/8--7/8 ....school days but oni 2 short days so didn really pay attention in class but got back some papers.... chinese 60/100 ...sucks like hell...but is all the mcq qns that i ans wrongly...i dun really think is fair to use mcq to test a student ability esp languages....its realli unfair....then got back chem paper1 ...18/30..no comments....maths 42/75 ...omg i pass...but at least some of my efforts did paid off...shall work harder for promos....

8/8/07.... national day celebration at school...veri sianx....after tat went st house to put her thing... since theres time.... we played bridge......then went to chinatown the $10 karoke...but full house so end up in party world...damm ex lehx....same price as k-student but shorter duration and no refiill of tibbits n only a cup of drink..... $14.....went maxwell food centre for dinner....then accompanied her to change money for her china trip...all of us in the end end up playing that game..... went home ard 10 ...then saw guomin at chinatown mrt station....reach home ard 11plus ..use the com till 1 plus....sleep....

9/8/07 ....natinal day!!!! went out early with my family... went vivo...ate breadfast+lunch at food republic...veri nice...then shopping..brought a watch...$10 a fila shirt ...$14.20.... a shorts and belt from freshbox...$39.90 + $16.90.......after tat went plaza sing to repair my phone....shop a while ...then went to clementi for dinner.....the claypot rice.....went home...watch tv..use the com till 2 plus then sleep....

10/8....slack n rot at home

11/8 went vivo again with st n yk....eat shop n eat..haha...the donoughts veri nice....then went plaza sing to collect my phone...shop there...then went to orchard...heeren...then taka....eat...then cinni...then me n yk went home...n st go meet her friend for movie...reach home 9 plus..bath n sleep damm early ....

haha...tis week total spend i think got 1oo plus ba...but luckily most of it is sponsered by my parents..haha...gtg.

2007-08-04T12:29:00.000+08:00

i back....common test is finalli over....woohoo....veri tired this past week ...everyday went to the lib to mug with des and st...haix...for this ct...i sure won't do well de...haix...nvm then ...shall work hard for promo....

have fun for the past 2 days...
thurs: after ct...went home change then went to meet my class peeps and went to vivo.....watch 'alone' ...damm scary lorx...esp the bringal face...me vic and weilun squeezed to 2 seats....haha...next went to take photos...and alot of photos...like filming for our album ....then took a lot time to decide where to eat....before deciding to go queensway to eat bbq seafood...nice and cheap...then gossip and chit chatted till 10 plus then dcided to go back..on the journey back with fy vic n des ...gossip again...cause the presence of fy...haha

fri: woke up damm late ...n vic was waiting for me below my house....omg...meet at 10 then when vic call me at 10 i was still sleeping...ask him come up and wait first...and btw..i was still i my t-shirt shorts and the just wake up look...disgrace.... went to des house..the others not here yet so me n vic went to have breadfast.....then went des house play mahjong with s29 peeps and blackjack....then 1345 went to je k box.....cool sehx...we requested for extra mike then they gave us 2 cordless mike...woohoo.then begining see till veri the serious type..then later we damm high ...sing those damm high the song...me des wl rina vic sherlyn were standing up n jump on the sofa...me vic n wl were like having our concert...then the 'audinces' so pei he ,.....haha....veri high....then i leave ard 730 where theres no one chasing us....then i rush to jp to meet yl st n yk for dinner...have our dinner at bento box..then catch up with each other..after tat help st to chase her happiness....mission failed..then went to mac to talk again.....then went home naer 12 ...use the com till 2 plus then went to sleep,,,

28072007 S.H.E Play Fun Party@Max Pavilion -- 魔力

2007-08-02T12:43:00.001+08:00

2007-07-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

hey i back in blogging after so mani days...although common test is in 2 days time.....
just came back from S.H.E PLAY CONCERT..... veri nice....but must thanks the auntie for giving me n yk de VIP TICKET.... XIE XIE NI.....haha...otherwise i may not have enjoy myself so much.... we were queuing up initialy then an auntie came to the back and start giving out these VIP tickets....so i just take...haha....so lucky ...dun need to q and can just enter...blk A3 row 12....its only 12 rows from the stage....haha...veri close ...even closer to the one when i went to yi dong cheng bao...but not as close to the qi huan le yuan de....
oki shall talk bout the content for the show:
1.boom so hot manx....
2.五月天
3.借口
4.伦敦大桥垮下来
5.谢谢你的温柔 .....seems better without farenheit....(no offence to their fans)
6.中国话
7.听袁惟仁弹吉他 ......selina and hebe veri cute
8.说你爱我 ......veri nice and touchong!!!!
9.好心情Just be yourself
10.老婆....... they play piano together ...so coolx
11.魔力
saw diya after the concert and went up to her to take photos with her..... she is so friendly.....

oki i have left with a day before the start of my common test....omg.... i left with so mani topics and chapters undone... i am dead for sure...gotta spend tmr wisely .....i going to mug now.........
i will post the pics another day most prob after the common test......

mon 30/7 General Paper
tues 31/7 Maths and Economics.... i will be half dead after the paper...
wed 1/8 chemistry ...hope to do well.....
thurs 2/8 biology..... haven start on ani chapter yet...die....

2007.06.29 超級星光大道林宥嘉-愛我好嗎(蘇慧倫)

2007-07-26T23:40:00.001+08:00

nice singing!!!!!

S.H.E - 20070427 全民大闷锅 - Hebe唱选择（好听）

2007-07-19T23:21:00.001+08:00

2007-07-08T16:34:00.000+08:00

i back in blogging......sianx...tmr is mo le...so fast....time flies quickly tis week.
sat 30/6: went for jj amazing cultural race ...me st et and yk in a grp...run and run but in the end didn win...haha ...but at least we are top 8..haha...we are like siao and very disgrace... we were running and shouting throughout...and we were at city hall mrt...very disgrace...

mon2/7 : youth day ....went k box with st yk ...sing and sing...then went sci centre mac to do some hw yl join later...but in the end din do...we were chatting throughout...haha...we see each other almost everday yet we have so much topics to talk about...haha ...bu kui 4 of us are so gd frienx...haha....

tues 3/7: nth much happen....didn noe tat u guys are so kepo..haha...but aniwany shows that u guys "care" bout me....haha....reach home veri early tat day ...watch huan huan ai but too tired fell asleep..haha...

wed 4/7: annoucing of post for e club...dixon is the president for eclubb...haha congrats....thanks to he and jasmine help... i being transfer to bu3...woohoo...finalli...haha ...xie xie....then i become the marketing manager of bu3.....went home studi chem do eom do hw......

thurs 5/7 happy birthday 23rd student council....two years back we took over...now we were pursuing our dreams and educations differently.....i believe the 3.5 years spend together as 23rd will never be forgotten.... happie birthday!!!!! chem wa....then black out..no electricity....haha..damm funny ...we were doing lots of action to see each others ans....

fri 6/7 nth much ...maths test but i couldn do most of the qns ...gotten fail again....have alrdy got used to it...got back progress report....
chemistry---D
economic---D
maths---E
general paper---D
biology---D
chinese---A
omg...horrible results.....was really disappointed....but expected...cause i can tell that i didn put in ani effort for this term....common test is coming is 3 weeks time....gotta put in 100% effort to prepare...chiong ar!!!!
night time ....have our 23rd aniversary dinner....very pathetic....no restraunt got enough seats for us..inthe end ....we ta pao and go art park to eat....unique sehx....memorable....play cards then later went home round 10 plus...on the way home crap loads with vic des wc aa.....

sat7/7 meet the parents session..then after tat go nus for eclub thingy....end bout plus then went marina sq with dix mq stella.... shop for a while then went to eat at kenny rogers...damm big the servings...haha ...ohya...thanks dixon for the treat..after dinner went to see fireworks outside marina square......veri nice...me and meiqi saw the heart shape fireworks... veri nice...after tat went home..on the way back were discussing plans for cookies house.....

must start mugging for common test le!!!!!1

2007-07-03T15:48:00.001+08:00

From a interesting website found when surfing the net and i find it quite true.....

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

2007-06-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

hey2 ...i back in blogging after a month if i not wrong...so i suppose it will be a long entry ba......
tis few weeks ....many things happen ...of course some are things that have affected me emotially....saw sth just now and affects me badly...why????

mugging hw at the last week of the holidays.......sianx..mentally strained.....didn even revise my work throughout the holidays..how...ct is coming ....oh no..i dun wan 2 retain.......got back some results when sch reopen....economics:D maths:E.....although pass but it seems very ugly to me.....dun like to see such figures ...realli need to do sth to my studies....since i had chosen this road...gotta make full use of this 2 years and dun ever let me have a chance to regret in the future....

12/6/07---14/6/07 went back JSS for SLC 2007....finally get to meet up with 23rd.....the feeling were simply great seeing each other esp during that night.....remember the times when we were working towards the same goal and target...realli miss beng a student councillor back in JSS....the confident me last time...now have been gone.... gotta find back these leadership qualities in me.....23rd indeed leave a deep impact in me....i realli couldn't work well with pple esp my cca...like to appologise to them...realli couldn get used to it....i have always been leading and now being a follower seems hard to me....from the orientation camp to cca now...i unable to adjust to it......

oh no...been feeling moody these few days when i am alone....i am unable 2 understand ...i been changing....i feel that i unlike the yanhong last time....

SHE-說你愛我

2007-06-29T20:56:00.001+08:00

cute selina n show

2007-06-21T17:42:00.001+08:00

2007-06-06T21:02:00.000+08:00

have trouble logging in as i forget my password.....haix..suddenly got an urge 2 blog....
my life n studies seem to be in a total mess...again i feel very loss in direction.......and studies i really feel that i cannot make it.....how???
although been enjoying myself for the holidays ....but when i have to face myself with studies.....i really feel lost....dunnoe where i can start from...no motivation for me .....jc life is too ......i dunno how to describe...but i believe that for this 2 years ...it will be one of the hardest.... stressful.....hectic.....tiring....lost 2 years...maybe it may not leave a deep impression in my heart.....
i need motivation.....need my self-confidence back......need the friends n teachers motivation....otherwise...i believe that i will someday break down..... my situation now..haix....i dunno what to say.....
been worrying many things but dunno what are the things...

I WANT BACK MY SELF-CONFIDENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-03 TVBS-N S.H.E慶功演唱會大秀

2007-06-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

TOUCHING!!!!!!

2007-05-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

回到过去

已经过了好久不见　朋友之间开始想念　不知在哪才能看见　你最可爱的笑脸
我们放开所有一切　继续向前进　离别一前　送你最后的一首歌
我们友情永远不变　虽然我已哭红双眼
也许梦想不能实现　但我会永远记得这天

想回到过去　无忧无虑的梦境　天真无邪般带点稚气
每天早起的世界　赖床的画面
只要有你什么都能熬的过去

想回到过去　试着把烦脑抛去　必须专心听课不能分心
老师唠叨不停　盖上耳朵不想听　就这样玩闹不理对老师不敬
想回到过去

寸金难买寸光阴　这句说法教我们应该珍惜有的时光
朋友们一起甘　一起苦　日子慢慢少去
害怕毕业后就不再联系

再这一切结束一前　让我再说最后一声　感谢你们　就是你们　让我快乐
想回到过去

haha...i found this recomposed lyric written by me yk clara qq n zach while doing my pw....omg nice memories ehx....tis was written for the chinese project thingy after the chinese "o"s while waiting for the results.... damm meaninful while reading the lyrics now....realli ....bring back nice memories of 4/4.... haix....i realli feel one should look forward....not meant that we should not look back to the past but we should not be comparing the past with the present....realli tired and sick when hearing one continually comparing the past with the present....understand wat i mean?
nice memories should realli be kept but at this point of times....even everything dosen't seem to go well for us...we should try our best to make sure to overcome it and not complaining.....we should make out these beautiful memories despite these harsh circumstances.....understand?
beautiful memories without fighting and harsh treatments are not beautiful ...... smooth sailing of life won't give u nice and beautiful memories.....

Believe you can therfore you can...............

S.H.E 聽袁惟仁彈結他 MV

2007-05-18T23:48:00.001+08:00

S.H.E-五月天完整版MTV

2007-05-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

S.H.E 中國話 MV

2007-04-28T15:16:00.001+08:00

2007-04-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

P i s c e s Feb 19 - March 20 PISCES MAN
He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in. He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about. He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future. He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead. His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely. He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity. He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you. He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him. He is a sensitive, quiet, shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact. When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

haha...taken from an email and i find that those highlighted in red quite true...hmmm...wat should i say? i have always unable 2 understand myself esp in my goals n of course relationship.....haix...wat can i do? some one please help me.......

2007-04-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

yoz.....been a month i since blog.... shall update u all bout my jc life....
oki...pass few weeks have been a hectic and stressful week for me.....seriously thinking whether i made a right choice back in feb......been having different thoughts: would it be better off if i chose poly back then....or is this the correct route for me? i'm really wondering....jc life may not seems as easy as it can be....lessons till 3plus everyday.....followed by cca/idp/yoga(pe lesson)....n i would always reach home after 5...... its realli haix....jc life=no life.....
alrights .....but in my opinion ...i dun think the school is as good compared to what i hear in the past...some teachers for my class was like....wth u noe how 2 teach? from march till now...the only subject i understand is chem n bio....maths econs n gp was like alliens to me......
firstly: my maths tutor was a old cher ....tinking that he got the experience? u are wrong.....he dun even noe wat he was teaching? omg.....n i heard that he will be following us till j2....sianx...maths is my one of my best subject and its gonna be ruin....

secondly: econs seems boring n dun understand a thing....the tutor voice simply makes me feel like sleeping in his lesson......

thirldy:gp tutor is an undergrad from "a" levels who had just completed ns n waiting to go to uni....wth...such an inportant subject and the school gave us this type of tutor.....F*** lahx.....

serioulsy thinking ..... i dun have ani confidence and hope in my promotional exams this year not to say bout 'a'levels......why are the tutors so shitty.... i had already missed out my first 3 months stuffs liao...now i even do not noe what am i studying about.....my life revolve about hw tis few weeks....i was just chionging of hw n hw......i have not catch up on my first 3 months stuffs n not to say my studies.......i dun wan history to repeat agian next year when i am preparing my alevels..... 3/4 of the time revising my j1 topics.....as many have say its possible to pia for olevels at the last minute but it is not possible to do so for alevels.........i realli wan to go uni otherwise this 2 years is waste....missed mr hoe...mr lee...mr lau...mrs ng...ms tang....mdm ong....teaching...haix...but i will never have the chance again...4-4 seating in that classroom having lessons.....no more chance.......haix

but on the other hand .....thru jc..... got to noe mani new friends....n also have the chance to be in 07s29....haha...we rocks manx....doing mani stupid n lame things in school....taking very lame n silly videos...nice memories.....

2007-03-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

hey....long time didn update le.......
sch term finally started.....but been quite enjoyable but on the other hand ...its quite boring n totouring after rotting at home for so many months......
19/3/07
first day of school.....had several lectures for that day.....but the maths lecturer was damm funny.....went jp for lunch...n been ages going there with our sch uni.....
20/3/07
lectures again......play bballl...before going to pc....wah...the pc was physically demanding...but its good training for me ...haha..hope to slim down even more......went jp pizza hut fr lunch n dinner ...celebrated yanli birthday....went to library to slack cum study...haha...
21/3/07
lectures again.......then cca display...walk ard the sch...then wrote my name down on vball n eclub....but think most pro will go e club instead ...haha...then play vball ...went home after tat....
22/3/07
damm....i was transfer to anothe class.....stupid...from 07s28 to 07s29...lame sia....now same class with vic des n tsryhong ...lots of jss peeps....leave my cformer class ...but realli enjoy being in s28 lehx...realli dun wan 2 leave lehx....but no choice...but still beside s28 so still can see them..haha
23/3/07
a short day oni...received our first a level paper ......pw...haha....got the o levl feeling sehx....haha...then pc...still okay run 2 rds then obstacle course...manage to do the suicide window n i CAN climb over the wall lorx...haha......

2007-03-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

veri long didn blog le......gotta to be a long post....
5th March 2007
cut my hair in the morning ...then went out with yukai sokteng yanli n mingxian to celebrate both me n st birthday....accompany st to tanjong pagar to collect her ezlink card before meeting the others at marina square....then went to kbox...woa...nice n big room manx...haha...then lots of drinks...cause take the birthday package....yanli brought cake there...woa...thanks lots...sung birthday song cut cake take photos...haha...realli thanks!!!!then sing till 7....went 4 dinner at its food court....after tat talk till 9 plus then went home.....
6th march 2007
posting day cum st birthday......i was posted to jjc sci stream as expected...then went yanli play mahjong...lost badly at first but mange to win back some...total lost $2.50...heng ar...mx is more unlucky...$6.50..haha
then went home at 6...ate my dinner then started to dye back my hair black.....then pack my bag for tmr as i have to report to jjc at 0730.....
7th march 2007
after so many months firts time wakin up so early...bathe....change then went to meet st at bus interchange...then went 2 the busstop to meet the rest 2 go to jjc...the ogls were damm high welcoming us 2 sch..haha...sianx...lots of talks for tat day...then ended with a mass dance....
8th-10th march 2007
orientation camp....overall tink tis camp was quite fun but i still feel very funny throughout the camp...not used being a camper ehx..haha....thru the camp ...reminds me of 23rd sc..... whether in campers or instructors.....realli not used seeing pple leading me 2 cheer when i was the one leading pple 2 cheer back in jss...haha....then during the e-web thingy...the raffia string thing reminds me of 23rd together after we gotten our post...the strings held by each of us were being cut off by e 22nd and ask us to form back our bonds by ourself.....
btw enjoy with my og...og5 ....have a good time with thhem throughout the camp....thanks lots.....
pai sehx..unable 2 make it for the og lunch today....

2007-03-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
my 17th years on earth.....wanna thanks all whu wishes me happy birthday...realli appreciate ....thanks lots....today meet aaron wc caocao mx vic yq n yanli at jp...then they all go shop 4 my gift...haha..buy my gift in front of me... a little silly but realli appreciate it....thank you.....my first present recived tis year was a hongbao from my aunt...wow...thanks...next was from sab....wooo...i love that photoframe...lots of found memories in sc.....next was from my cousins n aunt...angbaos oso....haha...n lastly present from yanli sokteng n yk ....dunno wats is it yet....but thanks....
n those whu wishes me by smses friendster or msn....thanks alos....esp my biao ge junjie...the first 2 wish me haha....first time sehx..hehe.......aniway have a wonderful day 2dae except sth tat really pissed me off.....haix..dunno wanna say just in case that it spoilts my mood....
okay...birthday wish....ssh...dun tell u all...haha

lastly wanna thanks my parents for everything......thanks!!!!!n oso for this birthaday cake...omg...its very delicious....haha...isn't it tempting?haha

happy birthay to me!!!!!!!!

2007-03-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

i feeling kinda of lost right now...i am unable 2 understand e pple ard me these few days ....haix...dunno ...kind of feeling that i am worth nth in my pples eyes....why will i have such feeling...i oso do not understand.....i am oso unable 2 understand my own inner feeling...haix....been contruibuting lots but why i do have e same treatment??? haix.....feeling abit down .......been looking forward to the day...yet....haix......all i wan is a simple surprise or just .......forget it ....it seem s useless if i the one going ard asking 4 it....it hten beats e purpose....
i been treating the day importantly since young.....haix.....i do need a listening ear....but hu can i find.....

2007-02-15T15:04:00.000+08:00

happy belated valentines!!!!!1
haha...finally made my choice for jae 2006....i had decided 2 chose jc after due consideration.....dunno why...none of my family members supported me in going 2 poly....and thus decided 2 go jc...n of course there are other factors la......below is my choices
1. jjc(sci)
2. jjc(arts
3.tourism and resort management (ngee ann poly)
4. tourism and resort management (spore poly)
there are still others but is all poly courses...

cny is coming ...got lots of goodies 2 eat ...yepx...but i will be then gaining weight...nvm ...shall work my way out after cny....

2007-02-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

OMG !!!!!i made it!!!!!!
got back my results todayle....realli cannot belive it .....i got 13 for l1r5 and 11 for l1r4.....phew it is like getting sth heavy out of my mind.....haha....my efforts for the past few months finally paid off!!!!! but act there is a slight disappointment in my double maths..... act realli hop 2 get a1 for my double maths but in the end i got a2.....n another disappoinment is chem lorx.....but nvm everything is over....shall make sure i study hard for my poly/jc life....
haha...congrats st n yk....u 2 own me a treat.....hehe......

now actually there is problem.... i dunno wat courses 2 put...i always wanted tourism but now....which school...sp or np????? haix...nvm ...shall think of it for a few days b4 making a decisions..........

2007-02-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

heyhey.....tmr is the day manx.....they day that determined whether i die or live...no la ...not so serious....haha...tmr is the release of 'o'levels results....i am damm freaking nervous right now....omg.....i wonder how am i going 2 spend my night 2nite.....
i am scared ...nervous...excited..omg....alot of different kind of feelings going on in my mind...wonder how will i fare 2ml....i realli do not wish 2 see my 3months of piaing in studies going down 2 waste.....haix....

wish me luck tml ....hehe

2007-01-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

S.H.E YI DONG CHENG BAO Concert 2007

woohoo....she concert finally came 2 singapore ....27th jan 2007.....nice n a damm high concert....we were like standing up from the first song till the last song.....got seats 2 seat but all were like damm high n all stand up .....damm high....shake e light stick alll the way....nbut one stipid thing happen ....my camera no batt just one hour after the concert start ...wat the helll!!!!!so got oni a few photos 2 upload horx...pai sehx... omg ...i think the highest part of the concert should be when they sing Mei Li xing shi jie...they came down the stage 2 sing .....omg ....n they were just next 2 me.....OMG!!!!!!almost touch them.... below is the song that they sing last night....
1.lian ren wei man
2.bu xiang zhan da
3.remember
4.xing guan
5.ella's drum dance
6.ai ne
7.tian hui
8.bu zuo ni de peng you
9.selina solo dance *omg its damm hot !!!!!
10.dui hao ru zuo
11.supermodel
12.talking
13.wo men ze men le
14.yuan fang
15.zi dui ni you gan jue (hebe with fei lun hai)
16.chao xi huan ni (fei lun hai)
17.ai dao (fei lun hai)
18.shi mian mai fu
19.tong kuai
20.talking
21.bai se lian ge
21.bie suo dui bu qi
22.talking
23.ze men ban
24.di yi tian (with stephanie)
25.wan mei de yi tian (stephanie)
26.mo bu luo (stephanie)
27. ai hen jian dan (ella solo)
28.hou niao
29.ren dai yu lin
30.yu gui nu shen
31.bo si mao
32.ring ring ring
33.mei li xing shi jie
34.talking
35.mo li
36.wo ai ni
37.encore
38.hebe drum solo
39.superstar
40.ending

then today went 2 she concert cd n dvd autograph session....damm alot of pple....luckily join chailing n her friends....so need not q so long ,,,they sang ze men ban n ring ring ring...the atmosphere is also realli very high.....omg it s 2 consecutive day see them n realli got a s.h.e mood over me.....omg ....love them lots!!!!!!!

S.H.E ROX

SELINA---HEBE---ELLA

FOREVER

PERFECT 3

2007-01-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

Project Superstar 2 : F2 Carrie (17th Jan 07) Chu Muo

2007-01-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

Project SuperStar Singapore, Season 1, Top 10, Cest Si Bond

2006-12-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

hey...collected my contact lens the day before...haha...hard 2 wear sehx...dunno wasted how much tears....hehe...hehe..just keepin my blog alive.....went 2 shop for christmas present ....spend about $50++ on the present haix...nvm...once a year oni mahx...been spending large amt of time with family these few days...haha...enjoying the love of my family....looking forward to the sunday sentosa outing with my family n cousins.... sad ...my dAD couldn make it ..haix...nvm....

sianx...got 2 work tmr....tis work ending soon le....have 2 find another work or else have 2 slack at home...haix......nvm just enjoy my life can le mahx...ritex

2006-12-15T17:54:00.000+08:00

after so long ...decided 2 blog ...many things happen.... went chalet ....went out shopping....went kboxing...haha...too many things happen..... n also started working le.... at BIG Megastore...$6 dollars per hour...not bad la..... then everyday not go out is then go to work....

haix...the posting result is out ytd....posted to yishun jc sci stream...stupid sehx...but anyway not planning to go...wth...so far sehx...wast my time only lorx....nvm ...shall slack at home or go find another job.....haix...nvm....

2006-12-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

SHE concert-lian ren wei man

2006-11-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

haix!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realli feelin veri bored nowdays.....realli ....like there is no purpose in life......everyday wake up at twelve n watch tv till mid night 2am... i bored of this lifestyle..... haix..... is like e time passing by so slowly....mani of them started working le...so could not go out so frequently ...haix....
nvm ...i will be starting work next week....as a flier distributer...going ard door2 door...$12 per 1000 piece....haix....althought it looks veri tedious...but nvm ...as long there is money 2 earn can le....,...
sianx.... been feeling veri lost like tat.....why won't i feel jealous? but that is a gd thing..mean i have gotten it over le.... must look forward mahx.....but why will that happen at the first place... i also dunno lehx....argx confused.......nvm.....since it is over ... i shall not think abt it animore..... it will be one of my memory in my secondary school life....

i misses school life.....misses 4-4 ...misses 23rd....omg...time realli flies so fast.... i rmb a mth ago i was still mugging for o n now i feeling so restless....haix

2006-11-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

hei!!!! i finally dyed my hair.....
today went plaza singapura with yukai 2 repair his phone ...then decided to go n watch movie....
watched the casino royal....quite nice e show...esp the stunts...woohoo....then went to watson to buy hair dye...sehx...ex sia...$9.90 lehx..... went jurong point 2 meet my family for dinner....after that walk around jp....brought a new shirt from pMk......
rush home to watch pss 2 .....then started 2 dye my hair...very sianx....have 2 sit inside the toilet 2 prevent it dripping on the floor....yea manx.....finally completed one of my dream which is 2 dyed my hair....is rusty brown but turn out into somesort like red lehx...nvm...

shit my money is getting lesser need 2 find a work quickly otherwise gort no more money le.....

2006-11-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

hei ...i'm back......things i had done the past few days:
tUes: morning went schoool for the pae thingy....still haben decide which jc 2 go to...haix..... after tat went jp with yanli 2 find minG xiAn.....before hEading 2 cLementi kBox.....met yUkaI ...n SokTeNg.... sing ...sing...n sing till 0230....then went off....went 2 grab a bite ....before going back 2 school for 23rd Farewell party... thanks 24th for organising this farewell party for us....
haha...at the end of the farewell party....we as 23rd did our last batch cheer....and is my last time as the SSAM leader leading them ...haix.....then lead the whole sc in the sc cheer oso....my sc journey had ended.....no more official meeting for us le......
after farewelll went superbowl with the 23rd.....play till eight plus then went home....

wed: today wake up quite early n went 2 swim at yukai house condo....so long never swim le....so shiok when jump into the pool.... then went have luncg before going 2 yanli house to play mahjong n monopoly.....watched pss2 just now.. n now blogging kkkk.....will continue updating tmr...

2006-11-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

FREEDOM

my 'o' levels is finally over.....actually end last fri...but lazy 2 blog ...so now then update...hehx.....

talking about my o levels...i tink it is easier compared 2 school prelims...n really hope to meet my targets..hehe......

okay things i have done the last few days:

fRi nIteX......wenT home afTer hiStOry pApER ......cHange n went 2 meet yukai n zhiChiaw..... then went 2 cinni to watch moviE ....COLIC...my first nC 16 show watch....damm disgusting the show....but a very nice show......then shop at heeren for a while before going home.... n the exciting part is here ....I SAW SILVER ANG ON THE WAY HOME!!!!!! my idol silver Ang!!!!!!! omg ...unbelivable.....

sAt...went kLunCh with yK n Yl....after tat went shoppin with both of them n sokteng...... evening went orchard again 2 look for jobs......

suN ....went to cut hair...change a new hairstyle...maybe dying my hair next week....... then went IMM went my family to buy cloythes....spend lots on that day...brought 3 shorts...n 1 shirt ...luckily all on sales...otherwise...i will be broke.....

night time apply job online....applying for tutor...now waiting the agency to find student for me.....

mon......the guys came 2 my house to settle the gifts thingy for tmr....after went sAkae Sushi with vic wc n aaron...damm full sehx.....

okay i will be enjoying myself for the next few days...time to repay the enjoyment i lost for the past few months...hehe...

my new haistyle....

2006-11-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

S.H.E - Zen Me Ban 怎么办 MV

2006-11-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Kelly - Bei Ai De Nu Ren 被爱的女人

2006-10-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

Angela Zhang sing 記得 @ 娱百

2006-10-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

Angela sing Can't Fight the Moon Light @ 週日狂熱夜

2006-10-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

GRADUATION!!!!!!!!

i had graduated !!!!! tis is my second graduation in my life n indeed a very touchin one.....i had always wanted graduation to come faster but when its is finally here.... i was reluctant to leave jurong sec.....over the last four years ...it is indeed the best four years of my life ..... the memories had.....1-3 '03 2-3'04 3-4'05 n lastly 4-'06 n 23rd student council...... n also the 1 year of npcc memories......omg...time passes so fast ....to all my friends who had accompany me for the last 4 years ....THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to all my teachers: i promised to work hard for my o levels...n i definetly will not disappoint u all.............

to 4/4'06: a big thank you to all of you....lets jiayou for this two weeks...n we shall not disappoint mr hoe!!!!!!

to 23rd student council: very proud that i belong to tis family....

to yukai n sokteng : thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you for tolerating me ...sharing my joys n being there when i am sad....no words n express my gratitude to both of you....THANK YOU!!!!

2006-10-06T17:16:00.000+08:00

~JAY CHOU'S LASTEST MV~ ting mama de hua